Nate's Programming Blog

that I am a consultant and not an employee of the company I am assigned to. You really do have to approach things differently. When I’m talking to my managers and colleagues, I’m really speaking for Daugherty as well as myself and I really have to choose my words wisely. It would be really bad if I said something offensive, when that wasn’t my intention at all. Things can be misinterprited very easily if you are not careful. I’ve never been a real personal kind of person. I’m your a typical programmer (geek), where I enjoy spending time in front of the computer and playing video games instead of going out and partying and meeting new people. I’m one of those kind of people who find a handful of good friends that I can depend on and don’t feel a need to really get out and meet a whole bunch of people. It typically takes time for me to get comfortable around new people and even longer for me to trust them. Maybe it is because of things that have happened to me, or maybe it is just part of my personality, but I’m going to try and make an effort to be able to communicate better and be more personal. Not necessarily fake, but become a little less self centered and more interested in other people their lives and their feelings. Anyway, I don’t know how I got off on the psychology of Nate, but it is something that is on my mind a lot. Maybe it is my over analyticalness, which is probably the reason that I got into IT in the first place. I’m a very methodical, analytical, obssesive, perfectionistic individual and have been that way as long as I know. It has definately caused me problems in my social life, mainly because most people aren’t like me and tend to be more emotional that logical. I mean how many people do you know that really take a step back on a regular bases and try to take an unbias look at themselves. I tend to do it on a regular bases and I also tend to be very critical of myself, which I don’t know is a good thing or a bad thing. This is probably one of the reason that I have had depression problems.

Anyway, back on subject, I’ve been trying to take a step back and think about how I want to approach things. Not only at work, but in my life as well.