TimeCategory: What's really going on in Nate's head? | 2 Comments |
28 05 2005 |
I really wish I had more time and energy than I do. There are so many things that I want to do in order to feel some sort of completion in my life. I want to be able to work and spend time with my family, work on numerous open source projects, keep up to date with current IT innovations, enjoy a video game or 2, and be more active and atheletic. Maybe join a soccer league and play while I’m still somewhat young. Instead I feel exhausted every night. It is hard to just keep my attention on Gavin, whom really needs that interaction with me. The weekends seem too short and when they are over I feel like they never existed.
Matt Raible recently made a post addressing a comment that was made on his site about how he finds time to work on all the open source projects he does and work and spend time with his family and his response was not sleeping much. I tried that and it wasn’t very successful. I just get tired and unmotivated, probably linked back to the fact that I’m not in shape and not healthy, but when am I going to have time to get healthy and how is not sleeping healthy.
Maybe I just need to be less worried about getting everything done and just live in the moment, but that doesn’t mesh well with my personality, so I don’t really know what the solution is.
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I concur. I feel the same way. I feel “stuck” in a rut… I’m spending all my energy on making money for some company when I’d rather be doing my soap business. I also want to start having kids, but that can’t happen right now.
Hey hubby 🙂 I think you should just live in the moment. Easier said than done, though. “True Enlightenment and wholeness arise when we are without anxiety about nonperfection” A Buddhist Saying…